Because of you.

The only reason i stay at home is to have you by my side. Even I cannot touch, even i cannot hug, even i cannot say a word. Those eye contact, made me smile. Listening to your voice, is the most beautiful love song ive ever heard. Knowing you break off with your girlfriend, it feels like i got a pair of christian louboutin for free! Heart is jumping happily, but ive to show my sympathy while listening to your sad love story. Purposely came late to office so that i'll finish late and i know you'll come home with me. Secretly listening to your conversation between you and your gf, or scandalsss, gosh it killing me! Pretending to say 'No' when people talking about the future marriage between us..Deep inside, i wish for it. I pray for it. Decide to be single and waiting for you to propose me, please call me crazy. Keep the feeling by myself, its not about the ego inside me. I just don't want to lose you. Its better to have you by my side, even it just as a friend, even it just as a clique, even it just as a housemate. I believe, if 1 day you have a serious feeling on me, you'll straight talking to my face. And i will just say, 'I do'. I'm a weak girl living in a cloudy dreams. Its hard for me to accept the reality. I guess if you reject me after i spoke out on my feeling towards you, I may be will fly to live abroad so that i'll not bump into your face for my entire life. Keep those feeling by myself, I dont even know if this is the right way. But its better than losing you..